I was that pseudo-millenial-thinker when it came to the work force. I didn't want to go corporate. I didn't want stressful office hours. I didn't want to be a "slave". I also didn't want to drive all the way to work and go through traffic after a long day. I spent many years doing freelance work (which wasn't bad at all) plus doing 'work-from-home' jobs here and there. The most recent job though... it was the worst experience so far. I won't get into detail, but it did push me to wake up and prove a point. Okay, more of prove a point to myself. I went ahead and told myself, let's give the advertising industry a shot. Thing is, the ad world has always been my angel and demon. I feared it so much, but at the same time, I was curious. All the horrors stories of people dying or having breakdowns got me scared because I KNOW myself... if i'm super stressed out, I don't cry or rant, I get VERY ANGRY. I've been working sooooo hard to control (and even eliminate!) my anger issues, so deliberately placing myself in a place that could bring all those anger issues back??? Am I crazy?!
I went ahead and tried. With help and a whole lotta pushing, I was able to grab a freelancing gig at BBDO. If I do well, then there's a chance of absorption. Cool! Well... guess what, it's been a week and EVERYTHING THAT I FEARED WOULD HAPPEN, HAPPENED. HAHA!
After my first week, there are lots of things I realized. When I say "lots", I mean A WHOLE LONG LIST OF THINGS. I won't go through that list because I want to know which ones to work on first, but I'm convinced I need to up my game by a lot. I never thought I was THEE BEST SHIZZ FIZZLE DAMN RIGHT AWESOME DESIGNER, but I know I have skills and there's still a whole lot of space for growth. For the past 12 years, I worked really hard on Conceptualization, Illustration, and Art Direction, but I didn't work hard on the more technical side of design. I can create things inside my head like a boss. Branding became my passion and I can create a whole identity and execute it. Layouting is SO MUCH FUN. I didn't know I also needed to work on my photoshop / editing skills. This is where I'm struggling. In my many years of design, I never had to do this kind of editing. So, I have to work double time and really go back to everything i've studied in the past.
BRING IT. I'm ready. I'm not sure if I'll stay in this company. I don't know where I'll end up, but I'm enjoying this ride so far. It's only been a week and I already learned many many things. A lot of life lessons if you ask me. Most importantly, I'm finally answering questions I've been thinking about for a long time now: I have the passion and drive, I just needed a place to show it. My life is moving forward and I'm happy about that. I don't feel so stuck anymore, so it's time to keep moving and grow even more. There's so much more to learn and I'm so excited about it.