#Reflections: First Week on the Job

So, it was my first week on my new and wow, OT everyday. Haha. I expected this, but not every single day of the week. 

Anyways, I'm writing this post because I have a few things on my mind that I want to share. 

• I'm 100% adjusting to the new setting and i'm still learning my groove with everything. I'm really not used to sitting in one place for a long time so I'm still figuring out what to do about that. 
• The commute is killing my brain cells. With all this 'over-time', I'm so exhausted in the morning because I'm not in the age of staying up late and waking up early anymore. I know when I don't get enough sleep, the next day is just BAD. 
• I find myself really slow because I still get nervous. I still feel a little insecure because I'm still not comfortable where I am, but I'm giving myself 1-2 more weeks of this. I need to improve. I need to work and think faster. I have no problem working under pressure, but with this place being new to me... my ticks are coming out. I have to work on this. FAST. I have to focus. 
• I see myself with this company for a long time so, I'm convinced to keep improving. I haven't worked with a team and NOT have my own brand so this is really an adjustment period for me. I'm hoping that I don't keep disappointing my teammates and bosses. I have to show them that I can do this. No one is here to hold my hand and show me the way, so come on Carms, let's do this. 
• I'm still slow. This is really bothering me because I'm not normally like this. I can usually think of things really quickly and be able to execute. I felt bad because I took so long with some revisions and my accounts person had to wait for me to finish so she could send the material. Yah... I just felt really bad... I need to work on this. 

I needed to reflect on my first week and yup, I have so many things to focus on. Like every other company, I'm on 6 months probation and I hope by my 6th month, I've improved a lot. I will try to catch up, but I can't help but feel a little nervous at this point. I want to be able to contribute, but I still have a lot to learn about the ad industry. I have to act and be an "art director" now. I don't mean to place so much pressure on myself, but I want to be excellent like my other team mates. I want to be unstoppable. I want my teammates to rely on me too. 

It's going to be all okay, Carms. You know your weaknesses, but you also know your strengths. Let's use them now.