Finally. Haha. So after 3 months, I finally made a MOC building I'm happy with. With my limited amount of colored and gray bricks, I was able to come up with this. Woot Woot! Happy Carms. 2 floors was all I could make... and I'm a little shocked with how many pieces I used for just two floors. I really underestimate the number of bricks I actually have. It looks a lot but I'm still learning the functionality of the different bricks. It's actually super interesting... cos each brick can really give you so many different designs. It becomes a little overwhelming sometimes.  Haha. BUT YAH! I finally have a MOC building... a legit one. Hahaha. 

The logo I designed for Rayo Eyewear is on the products already! HOW EXCITING!!!! Hahaha. It's so nice to see your work on something like this. Haha. Woot! Thanks to Priya for sharing this image with me! 

I moved the furniture in my room again so I could have my very own Lego Corner. My bricks are slowly building up and I'm realizing how much space i'll be needing soon cos I've been ordering here and there... so I'm pretty sure i'll be needing more storage too. This is it so far. Almost 3 months worth of collecting and scouting. Haha. I'm proud of myself because I'm sticking to a hobby that I love. Too bad I can't make a living out of it. hahahaha. I definitely have enough bricks to create MOCs, but I don't have enough to build my buildings yet. I know it's going to take time. Patience is key. Haha. 
Today, I bought the newest version of the Millenium Falcon. I got to snuggle up in my little corner and get lost in all the excitement! No really, this everything to me. I'm so in love with Lego now and I don't regret anyyyything. 

One of my favorite topics to talk about is friendship because it's obviously one of the best things about being alive. It tends to shock the beejeezus out of you every once in a while. Haha. I love talking about this because I totally understand what its like to lose 80-90% of your friends in one go. This happened 3 years ago and the pain I went through drained the hell out of me, but then life pushed its limits and gave me the inside scoop into love and friendship. The most important ones stayed and then I met a whole new bunch that captivated my heart. It's not like I talk to these people ALL THE TIME, but I know they'll be around when I need them. Let me put it this way, if I died, I know they'll most likely attend my funeral or at least cry their eyes out... Hahaha. If I got married, there's no doubt they're on the guest list and some HAVE to be part of my entourage. Haha. It's funny because CellyWelly and I were talking about Marriage and she already said I'm a bridesmaid at her wedding. She can't take that back. Haha. 

Now, there's obviously a handful of these friends that are so good at loving and caring for me. The feeling of 'missing' them is there, but no matter how far we are from each other, the relationship doesn't die. Some of these friends have been around since High School and some I just recently created a relationship with, but it doesn't matter. We've been tested and I have to say, we did a really good job at this whole friendship thing. I've been having these Skype Dates with my best buds and it's like the distance and time were never there. It's story after story and laughing out loud at all the ridiculousness we come up with. Do you know how awesome that is? This only proves one thing to me... I'm so damn lucky which makes all of us so damn lucky. It's hard to find really good friends you can absolutely trust, but the fact that we're able to talk about anything and everything makes it special. Not only that, the good memories outweigh the the bad. We've said and hugged each other goodbye. We've fought like animals. But we made it through. 

So, I'm one damn lucky person because I may have lost close friends before, but I gained the kind of love that can never be replaced. A love full of smiles, comfort, trust, love, and chemistry. The most amazing part in all of this is I know these friends are here to stay, even with the distance. A lot of these people aren't physically with me, but that's fine. It doesn't matter. We're able to keep the flame alive and damn, that's deep stuff, you know? 

When this set hit the stores in Manila, I had to be one of the first to get it because of how much I adore this movie. It's one of the few animated films that's made me tear up and makes my heart melt like no tomorrow! I was so excited to build this and I wanted to take my sweet time. Haha. Oh Wall-E, you're adorable. 

I was talking to one of my very very best friends a while ago and we poured our hearts out about all the itsy bitsy things that are eating us up or confusing us or exciting us or... ok, so everything and anything that makes our little hearts go nutso (in both good and bad ways haha). I opened up about some personal things and he told me something that led to an important question. After all that, I was thinking, "Hmmm okay, so they all have a point." He said, "The problem is you're really hard to read most of the time. The world can tell when you're angry or hyperactively happy, but no one can tell what you're feeling when it comes to every other emotion. You have the same facial expression when you're nervous, sad, annoyed, confused, etc. You shut up when it comes to the BIG stuff." The question he asked was, "why?" That statement and question came around because we were talking about dating and partnership. Like I said, I poured my heart out to him about my thoughts on this topic and it led to me telling him how every single partner I've had has wondered what I was truly feeling and thinking. 

I don't really know why. I think it's because I have some sort of wall? I think it's because I really am a tough cookie? I think it's because of my personality and attitude? Or maybe it's my defense mechanism? Or maybe it's my way of testing everyone around me because I don't really like wasting time? Or maybe it's really who I am to not give away too much because I just don't? I don't really know, but whatever it is, I think when it comes to partnership, my attitude needs to tone down a lot or I need some kind of 360 degrees change. After all that self-realization, our conversation led to.... "so what are you searching for in someone? We're not getting any younger, you know? What's the plan, dude?" I never gave this a lot of thought because I don't believe in 'Ironclad Planning'. Do I want to get married? If the right one comes along. Do I want kids? I don't know, but it's a nice thought. Do I want to commit forever and forever? Hmmm... not really? because the right one hasn't proven himself worthy. Do I want to be the old dog lady? Sounds fine because dogs make me happy. But then my friend shook my brain a little bit and straight out told me, "That's not what I'm asking. I'm asking if you love yourself enough to know what you deserve from a partner and what you can offer him." This was the earth shaker, man. I actually was pushed into thought.  

I'm blogging about this because I feel like it's my first step into finally opening up about what's really happening inside my brain. Without the overly sappy weird crap and the i-want-to-please-my-parents list of perfect boyfriend-potential husband, I know what I want. Here's the top 10 list. 

1. R.E.S.P.E.C.T. I need someone who knows how to control every single damn thing in his mind and body,then he'll get my meaning of respect. I want him to understand that I'm not the kind of girl who puts out. I'm not the kind of girl who doesn't think. I don't care how hot you are, you will mean nothing to me if you don't understand I HAVE VALUE. I am a living being. I have so much value.
2. Get down on it! I need a man who can control me. This is where I go all skeptical because IT'S JUST SO HARD TO FIND. Because of my strong personality, I come off as... haha, aggressive, outspoken, and (apparently) annoyingly opinionated. This is all weird, cos I'm such a softy... hahaha. Show me a anything cute, even a damn cute eraser that looks like a sushi roll, i go nuts. Show me ANY animal and i'll be all "OMG, I WANT TO HUG IT!" But yah, I do need someone who can control me when my strong personality comes out. Someone who knows how to shut me up when I'm totally wrong. Someone who can match up to me and put me in my place. 
3. He's got groove. He needs a strong personality, but isn't aggressively mean. I have strong opinions and thoughts. I like to debate. I like talking about many many things and if he doesn't have personality, it's all going to fail. I'm the kind of girl who will dance on the sidewalk because I'm hearing Shake It Off (Taylor Swift). I'm the kind of person who will get all big eyed and excited in theme parks, but I'm also the kind of person who can sit down in a cafe and debate with you why Abortion is just CRUEL or why posting photos of dead kids on facebook is WRONG. 
4. Make it a better place. I need someone who understands that I want to help change the world. I love being compassionate. This really changed my whole life and I don't ever want it to go away. He needs to inspire, help, and support me on this. I want him to take part in my plans to help change the world. I want him to give away so much and ask nothing in return. I can't date someone selfish... 
5. "My soul and mind are starving for deep, rich, authentic, stimulating, intellectual, spiritual conversation." This one has to be over-flowing. I'm sorry, but I can't date ANYONE who is dull. I need someone who will TALK to me about everything and anything with SUBSTANCE. I think I've already cracked the code on human interaction and I really don't have a hard time knowing when someone is just riding my wave... or has nothing to say but wants to sound smart... or wants to look smart, but actually has nothing to contribute. Bring it, politics, religion, tv shows, music, geekery, nerdist, go for it. I want to learn too! TEACH ME SOMETHING, MAN! Come on! I want someone who can communicate with me... 
6. Coffee & Cigarettes. I can't date anyone who's all "oh crap, i'm going to get cancer" or "Yuck, smoking is bad. It's blah blah blah." Nope. Look okay? I don't drink a lot. I go through months without a single drop of alcohol. I don't take drugs. I don't gamble. I don't have a vice that will send me to jail. So leave my relationship with coffee and cigs alone, please. You don't hear me telling you to STOP being a mindless human being or a self-obsessed attention seeking nincompoop, right? You think cigarettes will kill me, well, I think your narcissism and selfishness kills your brain. Case closed.  
7. He's got lotsa soul. He has an artistic side, which makes him passionate. I need someone who understands why I'm so passionate about the things i love. Why I go crazy over my hobbies and I will go through earth's ends to be one of the best. I need someone who will shower me with help and inspiration to get better at what I love, even if he doesn't care about it cos you know what? I'll do the same for him. Passion is so DAMN important to me. I believe the power of Passion is spiritual. It makes two bodies connect in ways no one else, but the two, understand. I want that so much. 
8. It's all about Change, baby. Someone who is open to change and is willing to open me up to change. This is tricky, but I feel like this is what makes partnership AWESOME (like Lego!) We both have to open each other up to change. We both need to know when to take down our pride. All out of love and care for each other, you know? It's as simple as that.
9. Green Grass. He needs to make me believe in the better side of life, especially when I'm getting all hyped up and angry about something. AND NO, he doesn't do the whole "Relax, calm down. You're getting hyped up." Please. He'll figure this one out. He has to. 
10. KA-BOOM. He is willingly open to a challenging match on a field, court, game, and pretty much everything. Ok, this one is like my biggest, i dont even know what word to use. I like a good match and I get a little cocky... haha. But I love it all! This is when I really get to bond with my partner. ESPECIALLY IN GAMING. I don't mind losing and making him win SOMETIMES, but that whole manhood crap, you know? Where the girl has to be submissive to her man stuff? Yah, NOT when it comes to games. I want him to give me his best moves so I can feel the challenge. I actually want him to kick my ass cos I know a lot of people don't. If we're playing Football and I"m the goalie, give me your best kick and shot. I want him to challenge me. 

There you go. That's my top 10! I guess that answers my friend's question... I'm looking for someone like that. Maybe i've met him before? Maybe I haven't? Maybe we dated before or we haven't? I don't know yet, but damn, if you're around, bring it on. 

Lastly, I'm never going to give up that list. I'm not going to lower my standards just because I want someone to love me back. That list only exists because I have self-respect, dignity, and love in my heart. He's out there. I know it. When he comes around, he's going to make me feel like I'm out of my league, but it's all good... cos he'll know how to shut me up. 

Could you imagine the excitement I was going through when I finally got my hands on this set?! Haha. I'm such a huge fan of the series, so having lego versions of the gang was so freakin' awesome! Not a difficult build at all, but the fact that it's TBBT made it way too awesome for words! Totally worth my time and money. 

I'M FINALLY A VIP MEMBER! This is exciting because I get bonus points in the Lego Shop and gosh, I've hoarded from them like a crazy person in the last 2 months. Hahaha. SO! the hoarding has begun and I know this is only the first wave of pieces. This collection isn't as impressive as others, but I'm sure on my way to converting my room into an actual lego work station. I'm going to be one of those people who has rows and columns worth of lego pieces. I've never been this excited in my whole life. I'm so happy I found this hobby because it really takes my mind off so many things that stress me out. 

I know I'm going overboard with Lego. It's become an obsession and I saw this coming. I'm not complaining though because it's much healthier than all the other vices people choose to do. At least this makes my brain work... and I get to shut my mouth instead of talking crap. I like that part the most. When I'm overwhelmed with negative emotions, I have something healthy to go to. ANYWAY! Yah, i'm understanding how expensive this is and it's burning my pocket like crazy, but I really don't mind it. This is something that I would invest in. It's not gold or whatever, but it's still worth it. I can't wait until this really gross. Right now, I'm hoarding pieces and pieces and pieces and more pieces! I'm ordering bricks here and there. I'm really searching for specific pieces because I really want to build my town/city. The current goal is to complete a whole street. I finally know what pieces to look for and that's exactly what I'm doing. I love this! It's taking over my life and I LOVE IT!!!! 

This all started with a facebook conversation. I sent the whole group a message and asked them if they wanted to go to Singapore with me. Mike was the only one who was game. Hahaha. One month later, Selfie Queen and I were on our way to Singapore. 
Of course we wanted to be on a budget! We booked a hostel through Agoda and the pictures looked nice so why not! Yup... I don't know why I still haven't learned this lesson. It's not the first time this happened... hahahaha. The photos lied... The hostel was challenging!!! It wasn't a dump or anything... but yah, it was very very challenging. Having to climb down in the middle of the night just to use the toilet made me cry a little bit. Staying in a Mixed dormitory gave me the gateway to men's buttcracks, strong manly smells, and lots lots lots of snoring. If Mike wasn't with me, I'd be so scared to sleep! Hahaha. Other than my sad but funny experiences in the hostel, we had fun. It was a good and new story everyday. Something Mike and I laughed about all day and night. We went around Singapore and hit various spots. Nothing we both haven't seen before, but I taught Mike where to go to eat cheap food in case you accidentally leave your credit card at home. We roamed around streets and mall and well... laughed a lot. Hahaha.

This trip was fun. I would have considered it a more relaxing trip if I didn't have such a bad experience in the hostel, but it didn't stop me from living the moment. For Mike's last night, we hung out around our area at night with one of our bunk buddies, Wes, a 36 yr old Australian who helped us shut everyone up at night (cos we wanted to sleep haha), who eventually became my smoke buddy. Overall, it was hella fun! I wouldn't trade anything for it.