Since Pokemon Go was released, I've been posting a lot of passive-aggressive (or aggressive) posts about people who have shamed or bullied others because of their fandom. Some have voiced out how there is nothing wrong with people who find something new to love and become fans as well. No need to preach because I absolutely understand. However, that's not my point.
I absolutely do not mind other people loving the "geek" things I've adored for so many years. A part of why people like me talk or post about our dedication and love because we have hope that we will find someone else (or a group) who understands why we are so in love with this thing. We hope they get into it as well. However, in the process of talking about it, people have made fun of us. Let's take competitive gamers, yah? Gamers have this image of being overweight, not visually attractive, aggressive, no fashion sense, awkward, and the list goes on. Society has dubbed them as losers. These people who grew up walking around, holding their gameboy colors, and leveled up their pokemons. These people who spent hours (to days) playing Dungeons and Dragons. You see, these are the kids you made fun of. These are the kids who were shoved into lockers or pushed against walls because they preferred to live in their fantasy worlds. Now, not all these people grew up to be in the same category as society's image of a Gamer, but the fact that they were picked on for what they love stays. Basically, people used what they loved against them and pretty much made them feel like outcasts. So when these people wake up in the morning, open up their social media platforms, then see all these bullies and 'popular a-holes' proclaiming their love for something they were picked on for? What do you think is going to happen? You guys made us feel different and yucky. You banned us from your groups because we weren't cool enough. You would make fun of us behind our backs because you didn't think we had the right image. We liked to use our brains, instead of looking pretty for the world. Just because it's popular now, you think it's cool? Just because other cool kids like celebrities are talking about it, you now have floor to voice out and show off your love towards something, us geeks, were bullied for? Wake up. I don't care if you have to silently apologize to us. We will welcome you to our world, even if you kicked us out of yours, but don't expect us to be silent anymore. We will fight back because you need to understand that it's people like you that gave us the unnecessary insecurities that we didn't know how to handle before. You gave us battles that no one deserves. Little do you know, these GEEK STUFF helped us cope with your cruelty. Now, you're going to tell us that you love it as much as we do? Please. At the end of the day, despite the shitty things you caused, we will thank you because we get to live life in the eyes of our heroes and villains. We may not fit in your social circle, but we fit in right where we belong. This is our world. I would love to see you in a room full of Geeks and use your social media popularity and trend-setting instagram - trying to converse against literary geeks, gamer geeks, Pokemon geeks, movie buffs, Whovians, Trekkies, the Rebel Legions, Cosplayers, and the list goes on and on and on. I really hope you start apologizing to the ones you've picked on in the past or gave disgusting looks to. I really hope Pokemon Go makes you a better person. I hope you cross paths, with the ones you picked on, while playing Pokemon Go and learn to see we did not deserve your negative treatment. Don't ever make fun of us again. Don't you dare pick on us for loving something you don't understand, because... well, based on your proclamation of love for Pokemon Go, now you understand. "That's why this team is losing." Haha. So, once again, we decided to start a Spray War, but this time, the whole team joined in - even the players who weren't in our group. Fun eh? And this is how we looked during our Spray War. Haha. Ijon was able to capture it. Epic.
Because we thought it would be cool and funny...
We lost the match, but it was worth it. Haha. We tried. Overwatch is so addicting and I have to hug the whole Blizzard team for coming up with this game. Yes, thank you, Blizzard, for taking away my social life. Thank you for giving me that itch to go home and play your game. I'm not complaining. I love this game. It's been quite a while since a game made me not want to be a functional human being... Haha. Anyways, I want to share a little back story. I bought this game because all my gamer friends were talking about it. I also saw clips of Bastion and... well, you know me when it comes to Robots. While I was still a NOOB, one of my college-mates from CSB, JC, commented on a #PS4Share post that I made on Facebook. We started playing together and boom, I found a new friend. Haha. It's quite odd because it took [almost] 10 years for us to start talking and laughing together. It's also funny because we didn't exactly like each other back in CSB. This whole "Spray Wars" started as a little on-game rowdiness and it's now a way we bond on the game. We both recorded games wherein we try to place a Spray on top of each other's Spray:
This is what I enjoy most about life. When you're not looking for something, it appears. Because of this game, I met new people - people who actually get where I'm coming from. It's not some fad. It's not some popularity contest on social media. It's not something you can just download and play. It's something that takes practice, skill, and awesome / healthy competitiveness - which I absolutely enjoy about the gaming community.
I'm not trying to put down other people, but it's awesome to be able to talk to people who can relate to the eagerness you have when it comes to a competitive game. It's nice to learn new things from them because they know what they're talking about. It's such a 'BREATHER' because it actually adds some color onto my life. We get to do something we're awesome at that other people don't exactly understand. How cool is that? But really, it takes me away from reality and blocks off all the negative thoughts / energy that roams around my life. This is why I love gaming. It's a healthy way to let it all out and stay positive despite a loss. It's such an awesome way to get the gears in your mind moving. It's also a neat way to meet new people who just understand where you're coming from without having to say anything in particular. It's awesome. Photo from: Ijon Kaw Sabby & I met up at Century Mall so we could enjoy a night of Beer and food at Brewfest MNL Social, but when we got there, we saw that there was a 200php entrance fee! We thought it was a rip off so we headed to Hole in the Wall. We bumped into Toni who told us Lyssa and Lorraine were waiting at their table! We rushed over there and an exchange of smiles, hugs, and 'omg's were flying all over the place! Awesome! It was a night full of laughter and kwentos. Sabs and I ended up with people we haven't seen in so long - totally worth it! Haha.
This is the thing about high school. You leave there excited to explore the world and feel like a grown up, but you find yourself back to where it all began. Sitting in a table with these people, I realized that back then, we weren't best friends, but as time flies and you see them again, they become closer to you in ways that are hard to explain. The openness between everyone was exhilarating and of course, the topics were never ending. It really is awesome how like turns out this way. You end up being thankful for a lot of things because it's experiences like this that remind you what life is really all about. It's nice to sit in a table where you don't have to explain what you're really going through. They get it. It's lovely to be able to speak your mind and have people reply with genuine knowledge on the topic. It's nice to be loud and crazy with people that will be as loud and crazy as you are. This is the part of 'growing up' I was excited for back then. Life will also be good with good company. It's the truth. As the Staycation Weekend ends, I have to say this, I had a very hard time keeping up with the young bloods. Haha. While they were up and about, singing and talking away, until whatever time, I was sleeping soundly inside the bedroom. I had fun falling asleep to them singing Moffat songs though - with Mark on guitar and Raf digitally playing the drums through an iphone. Hahaha. I was honestly drumming with him inside my head.
Alright, so this was one hell of a fun weekend. I got to relax and not think about work for 2 days. I was able to be "young" and just enjoy the spontaneity of events. I didn't have the normal things that keep my attention like the internet, ps4, Lego, etc. and I honestly enjoyed it. All I had was the company of friends and a nice place to relax (with beer and coffee). I'd love to do this again. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CARLO! I hope you enjoyed your celebration and truly appreciate the people that love you (and who are going to love you). I'm glad to have a friend who I can be so open with and share many thoughts and stories with. I'm also glad we get along great and you're able to speak to me with truth and openness. I hope you have many more awesome brithdays to come and we stay friends no matter how far we are from each other. Yup, I'm back to being addicted to a game. I don't know if it's the over-all theme of the game... or I'm just really into FPS games... I have no clue, but holy macaroni, this game is so addicting. I'm in love. Haha. Thank you, Blizzard, for coming up with another game that has me staying up all night.
I finally found a character that I can dig. BASTION, my love. Hahaha. I can totally kick ass with this dude! Hahaha! Look at how cute! I want to gobble and hug them all at the same time! I'm so happy right now and I can't contain it!
I was ashamed to admit that I was starting to get tipsy from all the beer. Hahaha. It's been so long since I went out and drank lotsa beer. Okay, that's a lie, but I did get a little tipsy. Free beer? Who could say no?
Anyways, The DC team went out with Tash (Sales Team Momma) and the company paid for a really good dinner and one of the most fun Karaoke nights I've been to. Haha. So, why did I have so much fun? BECAUSE EVERYONE IN DESIGN CROWD CAN SING. I was so impressed. so so so so so so so impressed. So, there is this 90's OPM (Official Pinoy Music) song named "Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang" by Pops Fernandez and Freestyle... of course that song was on the playlist, but holy vegetable, when Mark and Julienne sang the duet, I WAS BLOWN AWAY. I was so shocked that my team mates could sing so well!!! We sing and dance at the office all the time, but this is the first time I really heard their voices and I was just... so impressed. I felt so proud of them! Hahaha! I felt proud to know them! Haha! I can't get over it. I just could not find the courage to grab that microphone... because i swear, I would ruin the streak of amazing voices. It was most definitely a very fun night. I hope everyone enjoyed as well! These people are amazing. So, last Saturday, I was at my ex-boyfriend's room crying my eyes out because the pain was... wow. It was something I've felt before, but this was a little different because it was from someone everyone thinks is an angel and, pretty much, the last person in my world of "people outside my family" who would hurt me that way. You might ask, why am I writing about this? I'm writing about this because I want the world to know that Shit Happens and yes, shit happens. This isn't going to be some blame game where I rant and get pissed off at my ex-boyfriend because that's just... dumb. This is going to be a list of lessons.
(i) Do not ever allow anyone to shake your foundation, especially your worth. There will be so many moments when people test your worth. Remind yourself you're worth so much more. When someone decides to shake this, it's alright. The pain that hit me while i was crying in his room was different and it's all because I felt like my value was stepped on by a person I trusted. Even after we broke up months ago, I continued to trust him. I knew he was compassionate. We weren't talking, but I knew he was a good person so, i had nothing to worry about. Hence, why this hurts so much. I trusted him so much, just for my value to be spat on like I meant nothing. (ii) The infamous, "you never know what you had until it's gone." Because of what happened, I'm convinced to prove to the world what I'm capable of without crapping on his pride. I felt like my womanhood was being taken advantage of. I'm not going into details because I respect his story, but from my side, that's what I felt and saw. So, the only way for me to ever get back up is to make sure I move towards the right direction. Will I make things worse by using other men as cushions? Will I look for new boyfriends? Will I drink this pain away? Will I pretend everything is okay? Etc. etc. NOPE. I'm choosing the more Badass way of dealing with this. Something was taken away from me, I'm going to give my heart and soul something much greater. They will grow even bigger and better than before. (iii) Say no to Revenge. Oh, I know what could happen and how much spit can fly towards my face. That's cool. Bring it on. I was talking to one of my best friends, Jocel, about everything. I opened up about my feelings and thoughts. I was being vulnerable with her. She gave me the best responses and I know deep in my heart, I was in good hands. She said, "Ask God to give you a decent man soon. For real though, I honestly believe that's how I ended up with Leo. Qualities I would pray for before, Leo has them." Let me remind you that I'm not a crazy lunatic- I believe every single thing the church says - but... I do believe in Prayer. I do not want to get angry at him. I do not want him to lose his dignity. My ex is a good person and of course, we all have our bad sides, but over-all, he's a good guy. He just hurt one of the people who would move mountains for him and support his whole life until I die... but... shit happens. No revenge towards him, but I will pray. I will pray so damn hard that the guy I'm meant to be with will come around and not give up on me because... well, I'm ready. Thing is, I want to be in love. When I'm in love, I'm happier. I'm more inspired to do great things. Being loved by someone is powerful and I never knew that before. I was the kind of person who thought Love was dumb and being in love was a lie. It's not. It's great. I finally let go of my negative perception towards love. I need to be given the chance to show this person what I can do and what i've become. I learned that I can still be a hardball and because of that, I know when to let it go and show love instead of aggression. I know I can be harsh, but I also know because of love, I don't have to be so mean. I want to fight for something because I'm capable of change and growth. I can bring meaning into someone else's life. I want the receive the same kind of meaning from him. I know there's so much I can give. So, yes, I'm ready to give someone something to hold on to. I'm ready to bring down my walls and not be so logical. It's okay to be emotional. I'm ready to be fair and understanding. I can do this. I just need to pray for the opportunity.
It's only been recent since I started admiring the Lego Minifigures collection. I got on board with the addicting, yet cut throat search for each character. I totally understand why people do this. I've had an inkling about it because I used to collect Vinyl figures, but of course, this is different because... it's Lego. Haha. To complete a series, it's like spending on one of those big Lego City sets... haha so yup, it will hurt your pocket a little bit, but wow, it's so worth it. If you know where to look and your fingers are REALLY GOOD at guessing what's inside those packets, you'll be just fine.
So, I finally completed series 15 and I'm so happy about it. It's so nice to stare at! Hahaha! Woot! Next stop, the Disney CMS! Woot! I'm so excited!!! This set came out in October 2011 and ever since then, I've been dreaming of owning it. Every single time I saw this on the shelf, I would tell myself I would own this one day and I'll get to build it. I even included it as one of my goals for 2015. This is one of my posts back in January 2015: 1/3 hahaha. Not bad. Anyways, it took a while for my to get it because I was so focused on building my Brick Town, but for my birthday, I decided I would get it. I went to the Lego store and was so ready to buy it, but my mom surprised me by getting it for me for me as a birthday present! When I held it in front of her, she even asked me, "Haven't you been wanting this for so long?" You were right, mother. Way too long! I was way too happy! While exiting the store, I even raised it in the air and shouted, "YES!!!" I had work that day, so i had to wait for such a long time just to go home and build it. Hahahaha. But can you imagine the excitement while I was on my way home?
Building this was too much fun. I learned more tips and tricks and of course, watching it come into form was even more exciting. I couldn't believe I finally had this set. Lego has stopped producing this one, so in a year or so, it's going to be a rare find. I'm happy to be one of those people who got to invest on this set.
So I finally completed the Lego Mixels Series 7! Woot! I'm starting to chase these things because they're just so darn cute! What a happy and simple build. I love them! I want more! Hahaha.
I thought the heat in Manila was deadly. I was so wrong. The heat in Cebu was even more deadly! Haha. So, Naveen and I decided to book a trip to Cebu during the Easter holidays (Holy week). We planned to be spontaneous and go anywhere we pleased, but the heat wasn't our friend. We ended up just roaming around the surrounding areas (places close to the hotel). We also spent a ton of time watching tv and chilling in our hotel room... with the aircon on full blast. Besides, I was happy I got to just relax and not worry about a thing. I enjoyed just chilling with nothing on my mind because it's been so long since I went on a relaxing and lazy vacation. Usually, it's all about movement and going to all the awesome spots. This time around, it was to be completely lazy and shop at H&M. hahaha!
We visited the Basilica though and I have to say, I have never enjoyed a church so much. The architecture was breath-taking. All the wood work, paintings, and sculptures inside the church was amazing. There was also a street where all these graffiti were just out there for everyone to enjoy. I wanted to do a spontaneous photoshoot... haha. I enjoyed this mini vacation because I really got to relax and just not worry or think about anything. I want more vacations like this. Haha. I'm starting to get into Minifigures so, I thought it would be really cool to make displays for them! I've seen a lot of people do this for their minifigures, so I'm joining the bandwagon! I've started with these and I'm quite happy with them. Haha. I can't wait until I have enough funds to collect a massive load of pieces so I cant really allow my imagination to go wild!
When I saw this one on the shelves, I was already thinking I can make this into a MOC for my Lego City [in the making]. I went ahead and looked at it for about 10 mins until I decided I really wanted to get it. Haha. Yay! A new addition to my [for now] street! I decided to place a building on the left side. I made a 7-11 with apartments on top of it. I'm glad that Lego came up with this set.
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