When I was younger, my parents would always tell me, "one day, you will understand." This would bother me because I didn't know why their way of making me feel better was to give me this cryptic saying that I couldn't understand. One day, I will understand... such great words towards the angsty teenager who was still trying to figure out life! Haha. But, yup, they were right. The 'ONE DAY' they kept talking about came around and today, I'm at a place where I finally understand because I experienced the fall.
I was cleaning my room around a week ago and I found this book called "Children's Letters to God". I bought it years ago. I flipped through it and this letter struck a chord in me. When I read this, I thought of the events and people who represent the stars in my life. I also thought of the events that tested the most valuable parts of me, like my self-worth, integrity, and dignity. Events that taught me lessons you can't learn in a classroom. People who taught me what life is really all about. People who allowed me to make mistake after mistake, but never gave up on me. So, I say, "God, it's great you always get the stars in the right places."
These people who I see as stars are beautiful, just like the real stars we see at night. They're beautiful because they are the ones who really inspire me. They are the ones who guided me through the toughest times. They keep me grounded. They fight back with love when I'm wrong. They care. How can I not see them as beautiful? How cheezeballs of me to say all these things, but I can't deny the truth when it's staring right at me.
What I'm really trying to say is all these events and people I see as stars came in at the right time. Some stars have died or moved on, but they all come and go at the right time. All my friends who I cherished and left taught me about my anger issues and how I need to control them (ALL THE TIME). All the events that lifted me up taught me how to stay strong and not give in to popular opinion. There are so many 'stars'. I don't regret anything. I'm truly amazed at how life turned out to be even if it gets hard from time to time. It's all so damn wonderful and I'm very grateful.