I'm so far from being a pessimist. I'm really far from being a dreamer. I'm not really a realist, maybe I'm an idealist. I could be an extremist, but I enjoy minimalism. One thing I know is I'm a complete believer. I'm saying this because I believe in chances and hope.
I'm talking about this because when I look at my life as a whole, it's not the most perfect story. When I look into the mirror, I don't think I'm the person everyone would want to look like, but I believe that I'm enough for the world to appreciate. I don't compare my life to others because what I have is actually good enough. As a whole, my life is perfect the way it is and I know there's always going to be space for improvement and chances, only because I BELIEVE.
I finally graduated with a degree last December and I was so happy because it was about time! Everyone my age was already working and earning so much! I did feel like I was being left behind by my peers. I was thinking "oh my god... how long will it take me to reach their level?" But I kept believing. I believed that one day a chance is going to come enter my life and I'm going to be just fine. I sent out so many resumes (i'm pretty sure I reached the 500 mark). No one was replying. I was starting to feel insecure and wondered why... I believed in my talents and skills. I had to do something. I started freelancing and putting my works out there. I gave it my all. I started getting promising clients and I started telling myself it was a good start. After 3 months of doing this, I was contacted and asked to fix a start up company's branding and identity. Next thing i know, my ticket was booked. Next thing I know, I'm doing more than branding. I'm handling clients and talking about Marketing Strategies. Next thing I know, I'm sitting with the boss and we're talking about how to make this company grow. Now, we're booking tickets to Hong Kong to take part in a conference. We're talking about Australia and attending an Innovation Symposium. In short, I'm doing what I believed in. I believe that I'm worth it and here I am. I'm being given tasks that would take YEARS for some designers. I know I'm lucky, but this is incredible. Super duper incredible.
I know that I love working with people. I learned how to communicate with clients and get them excited over projects. Even while I was studying, I took the initiative to talk to people in the industry to understand the ins and outs of branding. I knew I was the kind of person who could be all over the place... like a jack of all trades. I knew I was a little bi-polar when it came to my attitude towards design. BUT, I believed in my talent. I pushed myself so much. I would never stop learning about design. I kept venturing out and looking for books that could help me establish my stand on design. I practiced Photoshop and Illustrator. I learned the things I was never taught by my professors. I put my whole heart and soul into learning more and more. I knew it wasn't a good idea to spend a lot of money, but I always told myself buying books and tutorials is an investment to my future. Now, I'm reading on Content Strategy, Mobile App Design, etc etc. I keep searching and reading on the layouts and styles. This is neverending and I love it! I know I'm doing all of this because I believe I can make things happen. I believe this is who I am. Today, I can say it was all worth it.
I know I have a lot to work on because I really am all over the place sometimes... but when it comes to the things that matter most to me, I know I can handle myself. I know I can calm my brain down and say HEY CARMS, CALM DOWN! Focus! Do your best! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. Always believe in yourself. Believe in the things that will bring out the best in you, NOT the things that are selfish and superficial. Your body can feel like it's giving up, but the mind does wonders when you push it. Everyone around you can make you feel inferior or tell you how wrong you are, but when you believe in something you know is good for you... there's always a solution.
For my birthday this year, my friends collaborated in making me this awesome video! I'm so touched because they took the time out of their busy schedules to make this gift and gaaaah, I love them so much! I want to say thank you to everyone who took part in this video. I also want to say thank you to everyone who greeted me. You all made me feel so loved and special on my birthday! I want to thank my friends who waited for 12am to greet me and smother my face with cake. hahahaha. Thank you thank you thank you! You guys are so awesome! I love you all!
Aishu, Liz, Silvia, Patricia, Therese, Mommy Louie, Daddy Raoul, Ninang Venus, Ninong Ben, Ate Farrah, Mike, Carlo, Maybelle, Ralph, Ventura Josico, Sanam, Devansh, Thaeron (Josh), Naveen
I was roaming around the Jalan Besar area and I noticed there was a lot of people walking around on this street. On my ways home from work, I see this place, but whenever I do, people have already packed up so I never actually witnessed the hustle-bustle. Today, I did! My curiosity won over me and I changed my route so I could check out what the fuss was about!
In one sentence: It's people selling their old stuff. So, it's one HUGE garage sale. Hahaha. This is a side of Singapore I haven't seen or witnessed. It was actually really cool because people were selling old cameras, vinyl/record players, vintage telephones, etc. There was even this old sewing machine that would look really cool as a prop in a tailor shop! People were selling VHS tapes (hahaha!), cassette tapes, old Ray Bans, etc. I didn't buy anything... but it was fun seeing all the stuff people were selling. A part of me wishes I bought one of those Ray Bans. haha.
If ever you need props for a vintage shop, this street is the place to go. There were so many cool things and if I had a GOOD reason to buy them, I would go ahead and spend money.
I'm about to embark on another journey and I feel so blessed to be given this awesome opportunity! I'm leaving Manila for a while to gain more experience and hopefully, this journey opens my life to new levels of awesome challenges! I'm so excited!
A few months ago, I asked myself what direction I wanted to take when it came to my work life. I believe I'm working towards what I thought of. Today, I'm getting exactly what I need because I want to know if I can work under pressure, but balance everything else. I'm being sent to Singapore to help a company grow to the next level. I'll be handling all the "BIG QUESTIONS" and how we're going to do this. This will take a lot of research, development, strategy, and perseverance. I'm super ready for this! My ideas are overflowing and I'm actually excited for my first official meeting. IMAGINE, I'm being sent to another country to work on things I super duper love doing! This is unbelievable! I pray this goes really well and from here, I can really show my potential and skills. This is such a big chance and I'm going to take it!
For someone who took so long to graduate college, I think I'm doing very well so far. It hasn't been easy because so many parts of my life were tested, but I got through them and now, I'm being given chances that I know I worked so hard for. This is going to be a good experience and will open up so many opportunities in the future! I'm grateful.
It's true. Life is most definitely like a roller coaster! There are so many ups and downs, and we need to enjoy the ride because at the end of it all, it's going to be good. As long as you work hard and inspire yourself, you're going to do something great. As long as you treat things well, you'll get there. Yah, you'll hit downfalls, but they happen so quickly. ENJOY ALL OF IT. It's how we learn. We need to get off the ride with a smile and a hopeful heart because face it... you survived it. You got through it. All the stomach turning drops were hard to get through, but you made it!